death?  no to quick,

keep living? no to simple.

just smile? no i’ve done that for to long.

move back? impossible.

give up? no, looks to bad.

jump off… of what?

i can’t keep living this way..it’s hell….i think i’ll just end it. 

good bye. i wish i could actually do it though.

Finally my move to Windsor hits me.. on the night i get into a relationship with the guy i really like, find out i’m cut from soccer, and then ontop of that..my parents think everything i’ve ever done in sports has been “handed” to me? thats a bunch of bullshit. i’ve worked my ass off to get where i’m at  where i was. And ever since i moved to Windsor my life has fallen apart. i honestly hate it here..i want to move back..my life is nothing but a waste of space, that’s actually what i feel like.. a waste of space..i have nothing left.. no-one to trust… its nothing but two faced bitches here who like to torture each other for fun.. and the guy i’m with..if only it is truly real..haha we are doing it just to test it out on my parents..yeah.. life isn’t happiness anymore. can i just leave? i think i might.

-bye for now.